to Bribe God and Repent.
When the sermon didn’t work and the Bible flipping failed, I found myself pleading with God,
“God if you will speak, then I’ll fast, or serve, or live holier.”
I assumed if I felt far from God then I must be in sin or not spiritual enough. I’d recall the day, repenting of everything I could think of. Most of my prayer life was recounting my sins!